This bracelet is not just an ordinary bracelet. It’s a symbol, it’s a promise, it’s a reminder. This summer God gave me the greatest platform I could ever ask for. For 12 weeks I was able to travel the east coast and pour out my testimony about how God has changed my life. Many know that about a year ago I went through a time of depression, which resulted in me daily consuming antidepressants that were destroying the faith I had in Christ. Many times I tried to take my life but every time I mustered up enough courage something or someone interrupted. Never in a million years did I ever think I would go through something like this. Many nights I stayed awake screaming at God, expressing my anger towards Him and not understanding why He would let me hit rock bottom. One night I sat in my room with thoughts of giving up rushing through my head and I cried out to God to show me something that would show me I had a purpose. I opened my Bible and looked down at the verse it flipped to- Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God.” In that moment I experienced God like never before. He was there with me, arms wrapped around me, He had never left my side. How selfish was I for wanting to take my life, a life that wasn’t even mine to begin with. I took those pills that I had been using to give me “joy” and flushed them down the toilet and fell to my knees and thanked God. My hatred was consumed by peace.
This is the story I was able to share to teenagers for 12 whole weeks. I can’t even begin to explain the feeling of standing in front of those who are going through or have gone through the same valley and letting them know how much God loves them and how He is bigger than any circumstance in their life.
Two women from two different states (rhode island and Texas), told me they now have the courage to throw away their pills and start leaning on Christ.
Countless numbers of teenage girls have expressed their stories to me and how they now have hope knowing that God has a purpose for them.
The bracelet above is not just any ole’ bracelet. It was given to me by a 14 year old girl who struggles daily with depression, cutting, and denial. She asked me to wear it so I would see it and remember to pray for her daily that she wont let the devil win.
All this to say that we live in a broken and bruised world, but God will make beauty from the ashes. Every time I shared my testimony I was reminded of who God is. He has a purpose and plan for everything. He gives us life when we have none, He gives us hope when all is gone, and for that I will forever be grateful.